Alright, guys. I have a problem. Actually several, but this is the main one, and I'm approaching these problems one at a time and thoroughly determined to destroy them.
Basically, my last boyfriend left me four times for another girl, before finally moving away, leading me on into thinking we had/could have an LDR, then randomly finding a new girl to replace me.
I loved him, pure and simple. I miss him every day, and I'm damned tired of it. I've tried everything to move on. I've ranted about him to people, I've tried to convince myself I simply hate him, try to remind myself of the bad times. Doesn't work.
Don't say get out and do things with my friends, please. I have no life. I live in the middle of nowhere, where the highlight of most anyone's day is catching a catfish from the river, or perhaps seeing a deer cross the road. My mom is horribly protective of me, therefore even though I have
two best friends, I can't go to one's house because evidently the girl's family is "crazy" -- not true.
My life consists of school, Facebook, walking alone in the woods, and sitting on a couch staring at a TV. Which totally doesn't help getting over my ex at all. The fact that he left me every damned time for some skinny little slip of a girl doesn't help my guilt at every meal whatsoever. I compare myself to every last one of them, and loathe them all.
Because all my friends have boyfriends, and even my best guy friend now has a girlfriend. No one that I like would like me in the way I like them, and I know it. It makes me feel very lonely, very empty, very depressed, and very angry. I'd love to have someone to love. I love the idea of having someone new, but there is no one
here. I love the idea of being happy alone, but around here if you're alone for long, then something's wrong with you.
I need to figure out a way to get over him. I need to find a way to move on. I need to figure out how to find someone else in this stupid hellhole of a place. But I don't know how. Help, anyone?
