[justme1119]

Well I really feel like he's the one. This guy I met last summer. We don't go to the same school I met him in summer camp. He lives in my neighborhood. He's one of those kids from like a perfect suburban family. But he doesn't look down on me like many do at school and stuff. I've had a rough year as a freshman in high school. He's always been there for me and helped me not to go over the edge when I felt like I was going to jump over figuritively. He understands me as I am and I feel we're one in the same almost in a fake way but it's real and it never gets annoying. All I really feel I need in this world is him. That's who I spend it with. I don't even need to go somewhere special everyday with him. And I don't feel he likes me for my body but for me we haven't actually done anything sexually more than a peck on the cheek. I have been used a thousand times and it never really seemed I mattered more I was just like a toy. That I don't feel now. He's been the best friend I could have. I feel like I've completely fallen in love that he is my one only. He asked me out and we're now dating. Only thing is I worry about my addiction. Like he uses I know that last summer we used to get high together we like some of the same stuff. Not exactly but it sometimes overlaps. I was fine with his use. It's not like he's not supportive that I quit. In november mostly. He's backed me ever since he understands it's not for everyone. But idk seems like weird like I'm transgressing doesn't matter either way I spend a lot of time with him and I've still stayed clean. But nothing gets in the way of true love and I know I can't deny my feelings... Idk