[Chelley]

i feel like i fail at everything. maybe thats because i was constantly put down as a kid. through junior high and highschool too. nothing is ever good enough for anyone it seems like.
my mom wont stop calling me a bitch.
i have no friends.
my social skills suck cuz i gave up on people for a really long time.
people ask me to hang out with them and i find a excuse to not to. cuz im so afraid i'll bore them and then they'll never ask again and then i'll feel even more like crap.
i constantly live in fear of taking the leaps i need to take to be the type of person i want to be. i cant take the leaps, i dont want to face the unavoidable rejection.
ahh that's more than one.