[will was here]

I did not realize i was gay when i was younger. I just thought I was supposed to like girls. I chased them around and I got all nervous around them. but then I met this one boy in art class. he made my head spin and my blood rush and my heart ache. I never felt this way for any girl. that's when I knew I liked boys. not that I was any different then the rest of the kids. just the simple observation. but then he got scared of me when i told him how i felt. and so then i became scared of myself. I was closeted from then on for a while. I still kind of am. I will never deny who i am. but i don't go around telling guys I like that i like them for fear of being hated and judged.