[skitnica]

I'm an Orthodox Christian. I was not really raised as one. There are some traditions and beliefs I was raised to know, but nothing really strict.
Truth is, I want to have a strong religion. I really believe in Him. Problem is that for people around me, in my country, believing is more like something to laugh at. In my country religion, mostly Christianity, was illegal for about 50 years and I'm part of the first generation that was allowed to believe in anything we want. The ones who were supposed to teach us - they didn't know God and the Bible, didn't know how to pray, they knew "religion" to be a dirty word.
Considering what I've said, I'm a Christian and I want to be a Christian, but maybe I'm not mature enough for it, since I feel it's easier to be Christian disguised as an Atheist.