[kite8k2]

Yeah, I want to communicate with her.... Very much. Ive had nothing but fear building up even though I will take responsibility. I find myself talking to friends and family, looking to them for afvice / comfort because shes not there to talk to me just yet.

Its very mind stressing. Im not sleeping well anymore and I just cant get it off my mind because I am worried about her and how she is doing and what she is thinking or feeling.

I dont think she feels guilty, she assured me that it was neither of our faults its just I dont know how she is feeling on the matter or us and the possibility of a child. We have only been together roughly 4-5 months. Im not going to ask her to marry me or anything just because of the baby but I will ensure that everything is taken care of for her. I still think we have a ways to go with our relationship. I think we need to keep building what we have to ensure a successful end , but its this lack of communication that worries me.

Thank you for all your advice by the way... it is helpful for sure...