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I know...that you're over this...and that I should probably stop thinking about this...
I'm really sorry...not just for pissing you off on Twitter..not just for lying to you...
Not just for the ending-our-friendship-when-I-really-didn't-mean-to thing..
For ever falling in love with you.

And I say that for two reasons

1) It ruined our entire friendship. Sure, we still have the fun, insane, immature conversations that I love and can't have with anyone else, but... I know... that it doesn't feel the same for you. When you text me, your name doesn't just light up my phone, it lights up my entire day. And I know I'm just another pretty face in your phone and in your life. Never gonna be anything more. I should be okay with that... but I'm not. I'm trying so hard to get over you... It's not an overnight thing. Be patient.....please... and maybe one day we can be....friends. And that's what I'll limit us to be, because that's how it should have been in the first place.

2) I don't know if I could ever stop loving you.

I love you. If you ever left, I would cut my heart out of my chest and give it to you, because you were the best thing that ever happened to me. If you ever hated me, I would swear up and down that I never did and I never will.

I don't know where I'm going with this. This is supposed to be something I wish I could say to your face, but... I just need to get that off my chest.

And one more thing...

It's over a year away... I get it... But I need to know NOW that when you graduate, I'm still gonna matter to you cause I could never forget about you. Ever.