Although you probably won't read them I find myself writing messages to you or journaling as though I'm talking to you. Perhaps its my way of coping and feeling as though I'm talking to you or something I'm not really sure. Today is the first day that I've felt a little more content with things but nights are hard and I know that I probably won't feel this way later. Who knows though right? I'm not sure if you stalk my
TH anymore so you may read this message...I guess that's why Im not posting the other messages I've been writing. I'm trying to stay positive but I guess you could call me a struggling optimist if ever there were such a thing...