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I understand how discouraging it can be to experience being friend-zoned on numerous occasions. I don't think you should change your personality. Contrary to what many guys think, *most* girls don't like the rude guys. They do indeed prefer the nice guys. I know I do.

I'm almost 20 and I have numerous friends who have never dated anybody, never been on a single date and have not even had a first kiss. I imagine their self-esteem isn't very high as a result, but they don't appear to be doing poorly. Your time will come (please excuse the chiche nature of my previous comment).

I'm glad to hear that you got yourself together and are now exceeding in school and are no longer depressed. You were in a funk and now you're not; you've passed that phase (if you want to call it that). Unfortunately, many people are stuck in this phase for years and years, and a recoverable future appears to be out of reach.

I think you're on the right track right now. I doubt that you're hideously ugly. Statistically speaking, you are likely of average attractiveness - which is not bad at all. In fact, people prefer the average morph of numerous faces to that of a very attractive face because people prefer similarity. Not that the notion is very relevant here, it's still interesting to know.

You're not even in university yet. Keep doing well in school and get into a good university, while studying something that you love. I can pretty much guarantee that you will meet somebody in university; everybody meets at least one person. Continue on with what you're doing and focus on yourself and your goals right now. A good girl will undoubtedly come along eventually.

Good luck.