[BethGoesRawr]

Hey guys... I have recently posted a thread in here called "addiction?!" or something like that, if you havn't read it then I will just give you a basic view of what is happening: I started watching snuff movies (where you see them get killed) and that lead to watching real murder videos. I am addicted to watching it, and actually have been making lists of people and what I would do to them...
Some of you have posted comments like "just stop watching it" or "tell someone"...but its hard. I tried to stop watching it and I almost had panic attacks, I start shaking and have to watch it. I don't know why I can't stop and it is scaring me
Also, I can't tell someone because I am going to some illeagal sites and looking at this stuff and being just 13 is illeagal any way..... I don't know whats wrong with me