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Member since April '07
I can't get enough
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Age: 34
Gender: Female
Location: Ireland
Posts: 3,339
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Join Date: January 7th 2009
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Miss cutting so much right now... -
December 18th 2011, 09:10 PM
I stopped cutting in February 09 but I miss it so much. Especially right now. I feel really crap, really lonely and I'm drifting away from all my friends.....have an exam tomorrow morning that I can't study for because I'm feeling low and I'm scared of the future. I'm planning my 21st birthday party for next week and I have this irrational fear that no one will come. I don't think any of my friends are free to hang out on the afternoon of my birthday and I'm terrified I'll depressed if I'm doing nothing. I need more money over the next couple of weeks than I actually have.
The three-years-ago me would have cut by now and would be feeling better...I don't think I actually will do it but I want to so badly. 
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago ..... I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door ... ... Níl a shíltear mar a bhítear. Things are not always what they seem.
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