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Re: I started cutting - December 12th 2011, 12:50 PM

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Originally Posted by TaylorRwarr View Post
I really think you should talk to someone who can get you help about this.
I've sort of been were you are, the part about just not being able to express what you're feeling any other way then cutting. I started cutting when I was nine and I'd kept at it until a little over a year ago, but believe me, doing this will make you feel better in the short term, but in the long run, you're hurting and nothings being done about it.
I dont know if this helped at all, but I know what will help is getting real help.
It doesnt even make me feel better in the short term anymore. That lasted only for the first 2 days when I had this "Don't hurt yourself more!!" kind of thing in my head. Thats the only time cutting made me feel something. After that I just do it for I guess the scars. I want the hurt inside me to come out, to be where I can see them. I like to see the damaged skin. But even cutting doesnt make me feel anything. And about the getting help thingy read the above post.
Thanks for reminding about the butterfly project. I'll try it someday, not now, I don't feel like stopping right now.