[Raining Glitter]

I'm really curious what you guys where thinking when you started to talk about him. It's not your fault I sit next to you, I'm not your best friend or really a friend-more an associate or that one girl that sits there-so I don't blame you guys at all. I just wonder what you truly were saying. You started talking about his innocence and how he reacted to his first homecoming. I remember that clearly too; I was the one who got him to stop cringing over the idea of "grinding" and actually dancing. Having a good time. I wonder if you knew about it-saw it? You all said how cute and innocent he was. I wonder if you know that I use to think like that, but not anymore?

I'm really curious if you guys knew how close we were. Remembered if he was my prom date-or completely didn't made the connection? I wonder if you guys noticed how I decided to not chip in on the conversation this time, even though I normally do. I wonder if you guys noticed any leaking of pain on my face as I tried to focus on my book? I wonder if you all started talking lower because you noticed it-or remember the connection-or something. I wonder if you truly started talking about me and him and that one innocent night-and maybe something else? I don't know, I couldn't hear. I wonder if you didn't want me to hear.

I'm really curious if you even know what happened between us. If you know we aren't really friends anymore. I wonder if you'd think he's still innocent if I told you how he treated me near the end. I wonder if you'd even believe me. I still can't believe that it happened. I wonder if he told any of you guys about what happened. I wonder who he actually told. I wonder what people would think of his side of the story. I wonder what his side of the story actually is.

Really, I'm so curious... If I'm just being paranoid. If this conversation didn't even involved me at all. If anyone knows how close we were, and how close we aren't. I wonder if you realize how much pain hearing that story I once called a magical night was. How it was salt in my wounds. I wonder if you all noticed at all-or didn't even thought about it. I don't blame you guys at all. We all just sit by each other. I just wonder sometimes...