[Batman.]

Hey Devon!

Honestly, I don't think it's that weird, considering I'm a recovering self-harmer, who works as a dishwasher (therefore, also get exposure to sharp knives, scorching hot pans, etc.). It can be quite triggering, particularly on bad days. In fact, I have slipped up at work before, NOT a good idea!

Are you seeing a therapist or counselor for this? You probably should seek a professional, at least to get some healthier coping techniques.

Personally, when I'm at work and feel triggered, I try to move to a less "triggering" task. I don't know what you prep, but I've done some prep work as well, and there are some tasks that don't require knives or burners. However, if I'm triggered after work, I use my usual distractions (painting, drawing, video games, or whatever else).

Hopefully things will get easier, and your job works out well for you.