[Eternal]

So a year has gone by since my awful breakup with my ex, and I feel I'm finally ready to date again. Well I have a date for Friday, and I am very excited. He's very sweet to me, much sweeter than my ex ever was.

Problem is, (as shallow as this may sound or whatever) a few guys like me and are getting upset. One of my best friends, Jacob, won't talk to me now. We went to the movie with our other two best friends, Danielle and Shannon, and he was completely fine. He was clinging to me however, and we cuddled a little bit in the back of his truck while Shannon and Danielle sang. Well yesterday he was telling Shannon that he is starting to like me (second time around, first time he got hurt by me flirting with another guy when I didn't know Jacob liked me) and then he said "Does Nicole always makeout with guys she goes to the movies alone with?" I have no idea what that even means. I'm pretty sure he knows I haven't been on a date in forever.

My other friend Tim is so confident that I am going to realize that I do have feelings for him back. He is starting to scare me a little, he keeps talking about having sex and how I will love it and how persuasive he is. He said once he starts making out with me, I'll want to do it with him. And he says it is going to happen when we go camping. He's not the type of guy to really make me do anything, but its still a little weird and kind of makes me feel uncomfortable.

Overall, I guess I just feel like I can't do what I want without someone getting upset. I'm tired of changing things just to please other people. I want to go on the date with this guy, but I don't really know him that well. I'm not sure if I want to sacrifice my friendships for him either.