[VampirePrincess]

This is really embarrassing for me to admit, but here goes...I have a lot of pain when I masturbate.

It's only my second time doing so, but I'm very concerned about the pain because as far as I'm aware, I shouldn't have any. I do not think I still have my hymen, as I can't really feel it there and I did go horseback riding a lot when I was younger...but I have never felt a pain that could be it breaking either, so I don't know. :/

Anyway, when I insert one finger I feel fine, nothing's wrong. Two is a challenge for me...definitely still possible if I force them in, but I can only barely tolerate it and it hurts to spread them apart even a tiny bit.

My boyfriend and I have discussed various things it could be, and we are drawing total blanks except I think its because of lack of masturbation and therefore no stretching out, while he thinks that's crap and we must be overlooking something.

I was thinking perhaps a reason it hurt is because I'm simply not turned on enough to have no pain, which would be easily remedied by having him try, but he doesn't want to until the pain is gone.

I've considered going to the gynecologist, but I have no reason for going - explaining to my mother "it hurts to masturbate!" is not something I feel like doing, especially since she can be a hyper critical bitch who doesn't want me in a relationship or doing anything of that nature.

Considering this, is there anything I could be overlooking? Any possible explanation with some sort of "home remedy" I could try? I've got very tiny hands, so if I've got pain when I try it'll be a million times worse if my boyfriend tries or if we have sex, that's what I'm worried about Can anyone help me..?