[PureLithium]

So, I kind of have a problem. I didn't start having sex till last year when I was in a relationship with a guy I trusted and cared for. We only had sexual intercourse two times but I did other "favors" for him every other night. I'm pretty sure that's why the relationship went down hill, I couldn't always say no. Well, more recently, I've become obsessed with intercourse. I was sleazy enough to have a random 10 minute hookup with a guy I barely knew. That's when it all started, I believe. Four weeks ago I "dated" a guy for about a week. We rushed into having sex multiple times over the course of a long weekend. I loved every minute of it, I had a great time. We broke up three days after but agreed to stay friends with benefits. Then, I've been talking to about 4 other guys who I've made arrangements to have sex with. The thing is, I don't want to have sex with all of them. In all reality, I just want to have sex with the one I care for most because I've had a huge liking towards him for over a year now, and I'd love it if we could connect that way.

Does it really sound like I have a sex addiction or just a lack of respect for myself? How do I gather up the courage to say no to these guys? I'd feel bad after leading them on :/