[darkadventureinwonderland]

I told one person before, and he threw it in my face every time we fought telling me to kill myself already because it would make everyone so much happier. i was going to tell my parents the day i told him and he just crushed me. Whenever i try to tell my mom she always brings up how proud she is that i don't cut, and how even though it runs in the family (depression and suicide runs on both sides of my family. i've had grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins kill themselves) she's happy that i don't have it. I don't wanna ruin her view of me...