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Self-medicating to stop cutting? -
September 26th 2011, 03:26 AM
I'm trying really hard to stop cutting, but i really dont think i can. I have a stash of hidden meds in my room that consist of; prozac an anti-depressant i used to take, tylenol, advil, and benadryl. I can probably find a way into my parent's safe that has the other meds, but i'll have to find the key which i have done before. Would any of the meds listed above help me control my urges and calm me? I don't want to feel numb though. If not, what medications would? Do you think it is more harmful for me to self-harm or self-medicate?
I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill
the thing that's in the inside.
Even the people who never frown eventually breakdown.
How can you understand me when I can't understand myself?
It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.
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