I just want to say one thing, you might want to censor your weight numbers, they aren't allowed sorry
and another thing, your parents had no right
AT ALL to kick you out, even if you did date a guy without their permission. If they really cared for you they would help you out instead of being snotty and bitchy to you. It's not your fault you were raped many times and were abused.
You really need to go to the police station and file a report.
Furthermore, if you want to kill yourself, you are also killing your baby in which you said you didn't want to. Not to sound mean or anything but I'm just clarifying that
I hope all goes will for you, Alayiah
