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What you need to do would be to go to the police. That guy had no right to do what he did, and furthermore your parents had no right to throw you out like that. You were taken advantage of in an abusive relationship and nothing that happened was your fault in any way.

Right now it is good that you are currently in a safe situation with someone that appreciates you and cares about you right now. Normally people victimized in abusive relationships experience many self-esteem issues like you are having right now as a result of the intense mental and physical trauma. Now that you are away from him you can start to recover. Things will start getting better soon.