[Stargazed.]

Hey there, I don't think you should feel like your a bother to talk to them when you feel the urge to harm yourself. I really think you should continue talking about things so it will distract your mind from self-harm. It is difficult, but it is possible. I'm so sorry to hear that things aren't so great for you right now, but it will get better. Just have faith that you will pass that test and get into the college so you can be with your girlfriend. [& study!] I'm sorry that your mother doubts you but one day when you complete college and follow all of your dreams, she will regret doubting you and be SO proud of you. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me. xx