[blumemusik♫]

I don't know how old you are, because I haven't the slightest idiea what junior high is, but the fact that you've recognised that you're still young is a good thing. You do have plenty of time to find The One, and you don't have to meet them while you're a teenager. I know exactly what you mean though, about wanting a person to notice the small things, but the harsh reality (coming from a fellow hopeless romantic) is these guys are few and far between. Nobody's perfect, and finding somebody who's even close is going to be hard.

This guy from your church. You're right, 4 years is an incredibly huge age gap when you're teenagers. You might get on well, but unfortunately, I doubt he's looking for anything more than friendship with you. The only relationship I've ever been in lasted 4 days, and he dumped me because I was TWO years younger than him, so four years is going to be an obstacle.

But of course, if it turns out he IS interested, I advise you to be careful. How old is he? 16? 17? 18? He probably has sexual urges which you are probably too young to fulfill. I'm being stereotypical, yes, but it is quite unlikely that an 18-year-old will go out with a 14-year-old (guessing ages) because he wouldn't be able to have sex.

I would advise you to look around guys your own age. Is there nobody in school you get on with well? Relationships with guys your own age will be more likely to be at a pace you can deal with.

Whatever you do, I wish you the best of luck.

Stay safe!<3