[Strife]

I guess I'll just describe the situation flat-out then.
I had just started dating my friend of several years two days earlier. We were y'know, doing things, and he knew I was abstinent and wanted to wait until I got married. He said it was hard to resist the temptation and I asked if he'd prefer stopping, since we couldn't do anything more. He said no so we continued. Then he...shoved it in, I guess you'd say. (This is awkward, sorry.) He told me that I had done it, not him, but I wouldn't, I know I wouldn't. Then I started crying and he asked if he could continue. I figured it didn't matter anymore so after that point I agreed. I guess I'm not asking about that part.

That was a few months ago. Less than a week ago, my friend asked him if he "just wanted to make my life miserable since [he] had basically raped [me.]" His response, according to her, was "Yeah, I raped her. So what?..." So I guess he admits guilt to it? But I don't feel like I'm reacting properly to the whole ordeal. I just don't know. :/