[Mandi]

Lately I just been feeling lonely and depressed. I do not no what to do. I do not want to feel this way. I just want to be happy again. I feel like I have nothing to look foward to in life and just kinda want to end it but I know I wont. I do not want to see a therapist but I have no one to talk about my feelings, my boyfriend gets angry and takes everything so personal when I talk to him and my friends would just make fun of me. I feel like I want to wipe the slate clean and start over. My depression is geting worse again and Im starting to think about cutting again. I do not now how to stop this. I feel anxious at times. I do not want to be on medication but I need to find ways on how to lift my mood and my anxiety. I no people care about me but they are not the right ones to discuss this with. I just feel so alone and want to be able to talk to someone but Im so shy and cannot find the right person to talk to.