[Evanescent]

No I didn't choose to have the disorder, I don't think anyone can choose to have a mental illness. My started when my mom spent all of our money on bingo, so we had absolutely no money for food or rent. With what little food we were able to get from the food pantry I made sure that all of my family was able to eat before I did. So I would go days without eating and then I would loose weight. I began weighing myself multiple times a day feeling excited every time the number would go down. Then the number wasn't going down enough so I would starve myself more. Then when I did try to eat even a few bites of something I couldn't because of the guilt. It all went downhill from there.

It doesn't get easier. The longer you go with out recieving help the harder it gets. And no I do not believe that you can quit on your own.