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I called jc tonight (he lives a couple hours away so I couldn't do it in person) and told him everything. He is honestly the best guy in the world. I finally told him about how worried I was about whatt's right and wrong. He told me that we could take a break from sex if I needed one. I always thought guys dump girls if there's no sex. But he also said that he didn't think god cares if we show our love to each other in a physical way. He says he can picture spending the rest of his life with me. I asked him what he really thought about us not using condoms. He didn't want to pressure me into something that went against my beliefs, but he wanted to use them. When we first started having sex, I was so broken, he didn't want to be an asshole. He doesn't want me to have to give up my dreams to have his baby though. He's done so much for me, I guess the least I can do is let the boy use a condom. I don't remember who said it above, but someone said that pulling out is birth control too. I guess a piece of latex isn't any different from pulling out.