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So you feel guilty about using condoms? But you don't feel guilty about exposing your boyfriend to STIs?

You've had unprotected sex with at least two guys before your current partner. If you haven't been tested for STIs, then you could easily pass something on to him. And I think that is an incredibly selfish thing to do. You are entitled to your beliefs, of course. But if you feel that your religious beliefs prevent you from practising safe sex, then you shouldn't be having sex at all.

I can understand that you don't want to use hormonal birth control. Many girls don't want to take hormones that way. But there is absolutely no good reason not to use a condom. Fertility awareness has a higher failure rate than condoms (especially for young users), so using condoms would be much better at preventing pregnancy and would reduce the risk of STI transmission.

Usually I believe in people standing their ground and sticking with their beliefs. But when standing your ground puts your partner and yourself in a risky situation, then it's certainly not okay.