Hey there Dionna.
While I can't pretend to have gone through self-harm before, I think I have a pretty good understanding of the concept and the issues surrounding it.
I want to assure you that there are VERY good ways to get through things like this--including talk to your parents. Parents can be more understanding than you might think. I mean, of course it's not a 100% success rate, but I'd say it could be worth a try
Also, I wanted to commend you. Your signature says that you've been
SH free for the last two days. That's GREAT. You're on the right path. Just get help, and don't give up on life.