[Palmolive]

Hey there.

Firstly I want to tell you how much of an achievement it is that you haven't self harmed in a year. That's really great and is something for you to keep telling yourself.

I'm really sorry that things are rough for you right now but I also want you to know that it won't be this way for ever. That you've already proved to yourself that you can live with out self harm and that it's not always really bad and that things can get better. Self harming, in reality, is going to get you know where. If you start again there's the chance you'll become addicted to it and you'll find yourself trapped in the viscous cycle which isn't something any of us want for you.

Panic attacks are a really horrible thing to experience and they can be rather scary. If you're not in therapy already perhaps this is something you can consider to help both with the self harm and the panic attacks.

I hope this helps.
Jessie