So, I used to cut myself all of the time, and I stopped a little bit over a year ago....
Then, tonight, I got in a big fight with my kind-of boyfriend.... and I was the one to stop talking to him....
I felt horrible... because I hate hurting people, especially him, because.... He's already been through so much
Usually I HAVE to go to bed relaxed or I will have a panic attack, in my sleep, and during my panic attacks, I continuously scratch myself.... It's not that I want to, it's just what my body does during the attacks....
So, I was thinking about cutting again, because it used to relax me-- and I'd probably deserve it anyways.... but I don't want to fall back into that habit... I also don't want to have another panic attack though, because especially in my sleep, I can't help myself....
Please help me?