I am a Christian, but I definitely still struggle with moments where I don't behave like one. The thing is . . your relationship with God isn't defined by anyone else. It's between you and God. Continue to read His Word, continue to pray, continue to fellowship. Don't pay attention to the way people tell you to live. Look to God's Word for advice on the paths to take in your life.
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