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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
July 16th 2011, 08:11 PM
If I ever have a daughter I will tell her a million times a day that she's beautiful and funny and intelligent and wonderful and good enough and that I love her. No, I'll tell her I love her more than a million times a day. Even if we won't see eye-to-eye, I will still love her, I will still think of her as the light of my life. I won't be the mother that you are. I will never call my daughter(s) fat, I will never call them ugly or stupid. I won't say they're ignorant or wrong for having an opinion. I won't ever tell them that they're not perfect. I will never tell them they're going to end up in hell. I will never be the mother that you are. Never.
I told someone that I think all relationships are stupid. I told her I hate having friends, but if I'm friends already I don't know how to get out of it. She asked why, so I told her why. I told her about everything you've done to me Kristy. I told her how you hit me and punch me and yell and scream and all that shit you've ever done to me. I told her how you once left a bruise covering most of my forearm and how I couldn't wear short sleeves for about two weeks, I couldn't wear anything without sleeves until the worst part of the bruise was over. I told her how this shit has been happening since sixth grade and I've never hit her back. I told her how I once yelled at you after you punched me, I told her how I yelled at you and I didn't even look your direction until you apologized a week later. I told her how that apology really didn't mean anything, the bruise was still there and it still hurt. I told her everything you've done to me. I told her how when high school starts, your number will be deleted out of my phone, I will switch classes if I have any with you, I will do anything and everything I can to make sure you never hurt me again. I told her how once high school starts, I won't ever say another word to you. I told her that is the biggest reason I can't wait for school to start. High school is going to be so much better than middle school and I won't ever let anyone touch me again.
I know that I'm a bitch, I know that I'm pretty damn mean toward people. But you know what? I'm a bitch who cares. I fight your opinion so you won't look ignorant when/if it ever really matters. I fight you so you know what you believe in. I correct grammar so you won't seem like an idiot when you're trying to find a job, so you won't look like an idiot in your honors English class next year. I won't sugarcoat things if they don't need to be sugarcoated. I know a ton of people hate me for this, but I'm a bitch who cares. I'm going to continue being like this too.
I hate relationships, I hate having ones, friends or otherwise. I hate the fact that I have friends because I know I'm just going to stop talking to them or one of us is going to get extremely hurt. I have few exceptions, I have few that I love so much, I have few that I will NEVER let out of my sight. You're one of them.
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