had posted on here before about my rape a couple months ago. However, today was my 16th birthday. My boyfriend broke up with me two days ago, half my friend ditched me, and my mom yelled at me all day. So I did what any irresponsibel 16 year old would do. I drank. I drank at the pool in my apartment complex with two of my best friends. they left to do something (I'm not sure what I was drunk) and told some guy to take my to his apartment. He did. I rememeber bits n pieces. by the time I got there, i collapsed on his couch. he kept asking me questions. Could he do this do that. I 'hmmmhmhmhmmhmh'
ed back in response, I couldn't talk. Next thign i knew his hand my down his pants, his, erm, thing was in my mouth. Then I was in the bedroom, He was inside of me. I couldn't move or open my eyes. And it really hurt. Next thing I know- knock on the door- he told me not to tell anyone. Then I was walking to my friends. Keep in mind- this is bits and pieces.
A few things tho- I am confused-
I may or may not have consented.
It may or may not have even happened?
I may or may not be over reacting because of the previous rape.
He is 19, an adult.
I was highly highly intoxicated.
I'm not sure what happened to me. But i feel disgusting. This is a guy i would never have touched without alcohol. I feel used and yes, I feel violated. Can someone pelease tell to what course of action I should take.