[HealingAngel]

You rub my tummy and my back and all over and get all touchy and...
all I can think of is if I'm skinny enough for you...
And... All of these repulsive thoughts of myself start racing through my mind...

I must be skinny enough for you though because you keep pushing to go further...
Always pushing me a bit more....
But... I'm not ready to go further.....
But maybe I will anyway...

You ask for boundaries just so you can push them...

You asked for boundaries and I said my stomach... under the shirt...
You notice when I stop eating and I can tell you keep track of how much I eat...
I'm not anorexic though. I just want to be.

I'm going to succeed now though...

Because you keep pushing the boundaries.
And you keep touching my tummy...
Surprisingly it's even scarier than my breasts though......
And that says a lot because...
Well....

Because I think I've blocked out a memory of sexual abuse......

And you kinda think so too... I can tell...

-Sigh- I think I'm more messed up then both of us originally thought...

My stomach's growling. I'm going to fight it this time.

ED.... I'll protect you... Come back. I'll protect you...