[Sincerely Yours ♥]

Kevin,

I am just so sorry for everything. I know that I am the most serious girlfriend you've ever had & those other girls meant nothing, but it hurts me. I know it was way before you & I even considered dating, but I hate thinking that you kissed other girls, touched other girls, had other girls touch you, & I hate thinking about how you've been hurt by them & regret so much. I really do love you & I am so sorry that by asking questions about them, I bring up unwanted memories & pain you hoped you could let go of. My chest hurts just thinking about it, like my heart is aching, & I want to cry. When I ask you things about them, I'm not questioning your faithfulness to me or whether you're keeping things from me. I'm putting pieces together, so my mind can be at ease. Since you told me the truth about your last relationship, I have felt so much better. Even now though, a month after you told me what happened, I still have questions, but I won't throw them all on you at once. I told you this yesterday & I think you & I both feel better that we've agreed to talk about this when it comes up & to make sure it's in person so there are no misunderstandings.

I know that you hate the fact that I still talk to Trevor on facebook, but you need to realize that facebook is the only time I ever talk to him. I dated him for two years; he was a big part of my life & I'm just trying to keep the peace. I tell you every time he messages me, so please trust me. I don't think I've ever done anything that would make you question my faithfulness. I wish I didn't date Trevor. Now that I've met you, I know what love feels like. When I was dating Trevor, I thought I knew what love was & was in the relationship a lot longer than it should have lasted. You know I was miserable & I finally got out, so no, I am not going back to him. EVER. Although we're young & I only just turned 19 today, you are the love of my life. I'm willingly to do so much for you. You make me so happy. My only worry is that I love you more than you love me, even though you tell me every day how you've never loved anyone besides me & I really am your longest & most serious relationship.

Wow, it all makes sense in my head, but I'm literally just typing whatever pops into my head.

I love you Kevin. I hope you know that. Please don't break my heart.