[amystery]

I'm sorry. I've already told you this and I know its not enough. I'm scared that I've really messed things up and I'd do anything to change the past. I just hope that one day you find someone who is better then me. You deserve a girl who will love you unconditionally and tell you how much she loves you every day. A girl who isn't afraid to let her guard down and let you into her life and her heart. One that you don't have to worry about saving from herself. One that wants to show you off to the world and someone who doesn't care who your with or who is watching when you two kiss. You deserve the world and I hope that you find it sooner rather then later. One day I hope I can be that person for someone too but for right now...I want to fix the person I am and I want to treat you better.

You taught me a lot about myself and you've shown me a "movie" of the person I have been the last few months. You've shown me how far downwards I've spiraled and that reality check is what's making me change. A saw a glimpse of the person I was becoming but I never realized quite how bad things had gotten until you pointed it out to me. So...thanks for the reality check.