[HealingAngel]

I'm worried if I don't keep going farther and farther with my boyfriends he will leave me...
I'm scared of losing him...
I'm afraid that I actually need him now...
I'm terrified he's lying and doesn't actually love me...
But above all else.... I'm petrified that I might actually love him back...

I think I'm ugly.
I think I'm still too fat even though I'm skinnyish.
I think skinny is pretty, but I want to be beautiful...
I.... I think.... I actually want to be anorexic...
Yes, I'm sure of it. That is exactly what I want. More than anyhting else...
I want to be more beautiful for him...
I want to stop eating...
And where there's a will... There's a way...