[LittleGhost]

Hey,

Um okay i havent been diagnosed with any real type of eating disorder.

But okay let me start... My mum, sister, grandparents, and both of my uncles have always been touchy and always talking about their weight and trying to lose it. One of my uncles was over overweight, and my family talked about it alot. I was always was a skinny kid. and then i hit last year 6 early year 7, i started to get depressed and i got chubby.

My family pointed this out .... alot. this didnt help my case.

I didnt eat at all for 2-3 days . After that i had just eating small amounts and ever little for a few months. They were diet foods, but were full just of fat, so i still had a bit of weight on me, so no one would notice. I started to get ill so i thought okay i will eat again. it didnt go so well. I couldn't eat fast food, or large amounts of food without feeling like i was going to be ill.

Now, i still hate the fact of eating heaps of food. if i can i will not eat in front of people. i eat most at night and alone. I dont want to put weight on, im scarred i will end up like my family. i was to stay looking nice. im scarred to put weight on, that it will go out of control and that i will get fat.

Please, if you have any ideas on what can help me, even if you want to ask about it and then have an idea, please do so. im not afraid to tell people, i just want to get better... but i dont know how.