[facade]

I'm sorry. I don't know what I'm apologizing for, but I felt the need to apologize... for something. Nothing important, or special... Maybe I'm apologizing because we didn't talk. You're (still) my best friend, and I didn't talk to you. And I hate myself because I didn't... I guess I'll just have to say what I really want to say here... even though you probably won't read this, but I need to get it off my chest... Although, I must say... I probably won't offer much because of the lack of knowledge of how you feel...
I have to say though, I miss having you around. But, it's almost been a month, and... I shouldn't. Right? Time is moving so fast... It doesn't feel like a month at all. When I saw that you were back, I felt like it was just the day after again, and I felt... alone. I guess that's why I didn't talk to you. I guess that's why I didn't talk to anyone actually... Also, I didn't talk to you because... I was try to contain asking/telling you about everything. It's just been so long since we've talked.... I guess, all I really have to say is... I miss you. I miss having you around. I miss talking to you. I just... miss you.