Im not a doctor, so Im not going to pretend that I have any idea of whats wrong with you. What I do know is that whatever it is, its not healthy. Eating disorders are dangerous enough when youre otherwise healthy. Having an
ED while you have pre-diabetes is crazy dangerous. Your body already has enough trouble with balancing nutrition, youre putting yourself at a high risk of irreversible damage to your body. I think now is the time to try to get better. There are tons of people on here that are amazing at supporting people with EDs, or even better, you can reach out to someone in the real world. Just remember, theres always someone who you can talk to