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Mom and Dad: It's been one year and one day since you found out so much that is "wrong" with me, and you hardly learned a fraction of the truth. You've found a suicide note since you found out, you're concerned about me, I can tell. You talk to me differently then you do to my siblings, and that lets them know that something is wrong. Lets them know that I'm wrong. I didn't end up like this on purpose, I am who I am, trust me, I want to change her too. But I can't, not without letting someone else in. Everyone who gets close to me just leaves as soon as they get a glimpse into my mind, I have only one exception, and she shouldn't be staying. I can't offered to hurt her anymore. Mom and Dad, I'm fighting this as hard as I can. I can't stand to admit defeat, but I can't do this on my own anymore. I'm stronger then you'll ever know, I've fought this monster inside of me for much too long. Please, I know that I'll try to talk you out of it, but please. Please be the strict parents for once and save me from myself. Please.

Bethany: I found out today that you broke down in front of two other people because you can't live without Hayley or I. Hayley's my best friend, but I can't speak for her. But for myself, her I can speak for. I say that I will forgive you if you ask for it, but I'll never let you back into my life. You've caused me too much hurt, too much pain. You asked me to leave, and I've left. Is that not enough? It kills me every time I fight you, every word I speak to you makes me hate myself more. But it doesn't matter, because this is what needs to happen, so it's what I'm going to do. Please, you got hurt by us walking away, we were hurt by you holding on. Please, just stop this Bethany. Please.