[Kumagoro]

Hi there Mickey,

Given your situation, I would say this is rape. He knows you don't want to have sex with him; he's manipulating you by making you think you can't say no because you will get hurt. I know there are many different opinions on this, and although he is not using physical force, you know from experience that fighting back won't help. I'm so sorry to hear you've had this experience; you can PM me any time you need a listening ear.

I know this must be easier said than done, Mickey, but is there anybody you know personally you could talk to? You mentioned one of your friends knowing about it. If all else fails you should tell the police. They should recognise that if you were manipulated, and knew of threats of violence from experience, that your situation is most definitely sexual abuse. Take care; PM me if you need to talk.