[MorganLeFay]

If you think about it, all religions must have started somewhere. I can't believe you have received so many threats! I've never found a religion that I completely agree with so I think your solution is fantastic.

I feel that paganism is the closest religion to me but I still don't follow it 100%. I don't personally agree with organised religion as I don't think anyone ever has exactly the same ideas and beliefs, and this has lead to so many disputes and wars which were unnecessary.

If your parents are so against anything non-christian then my advice would be to keep it to yourself for now. I have times where I want to tell everyone what I believe but other times its nice to keep it to myself. If you really want them to know about your path then be prepared for their reaction. I have heard of some families disowning their children because of a difference in faith (another reason why I dislike organised religion) but those are obviously extreme cases.

I am intrigued by your personal path so if you ever want to talk about it feel free to message me. Good luck.