Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
January 30th 2011, 08:42 AM
-You would not believe how much I just want to slit my wrists and be fucking done with it all... The only thing keeping me going is your love... And I know that's awful to say because it puts pressure on you... But honesty is the only thing I can ever offer... :/
And if I'm being honest... Sometimes, I just don't feel it. Sometimes, I can almost feel the love radiating from you (from all the way over here, yeah...) and the love I feel for you... Is uplifting. Other times... Nothing, nothing at all. In the back of my mind, I know that nothing has really changed, but one or both of us closes off, and it fucks everything up.
I know it's often my fault that this happens, but that doesn't mean I hate it any less.
-I love you more than I can say... And I shouldn't. I shouldn't feel this way. I swore I never would after Courtney died. All it brings is pain, and I know that when the pain hits, I won't be the only one affected...
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