[DanielR]

I've actually messaged her/emailed her and asked for definite proof. I'll mourn the loss, but only if there is actually a loss and she's not just b.s-ing me for 'teh lols' (or, to try and win me back).

PSY, you're right... I am entertaining the idea. Whilst I would be shit scared of the fact that I'd be dealing with broken homes, child support and distance with my child... I'd still see myself being mature and working through it. Part of me wants kids, just REALLY not right now.

Kiddo, I realise now that relying soley on her use of the pill was stupid of me. I think partly the reason why we never used any other protection (except the condom, but that was only while she was waiting for scripts on her pills to be repeated) was because she... dare I say "liked the feeling" (I'll leave the imagination to fill that in).
Indeed, it was scary.

Right now I'm just trying to handle the situation. I'm currently entertaining starting a relationship with another woman, juggling my professional life, and holding onto whats left of my sanity after this breakup. I've had messier breakups than this, but part of me just won't let go... I really don't want to lose this woman in my life. She's an amazing friend, but... I suppose they come and go, right?