[AboutAGirl]

For the past year or so, ever since I've learned that Buddhism is really about peace, tranquility, and the understanding of oneself, I thought about converting. Well, today I decided that I would take the step. Today I would bask in the knowledge of Buddhism, meditate on the teachings of the Buddha, and become one of the brother(and sister)hood.

Yet, as I was exploring the religion, I became aware that it really meant to live in this world without really being part of it. I really love the idea of being without stress, but at the same time I've lived my whole life as a dreamer. I've always sat in my bed at night before I fall asleep, fantasizing of what life could be like, what adventures I could have, how the world would grow to know and understand me unlike my parents and sisters. But, now, if I follow Buddhism and keep with the main principle of relieving myself of all wants and desires, would that be letting myself go? Would that mean that if I followed my dream of becoming a Buddhist that I will be letting go of all other dreams and the future that they could hold for me?

I would really appreciate some help, or at least some wise soul who could help me to understand myself at this point. Because, I know that if I really let myself go into this Buddhism there's no point of return. What do I choose?