[amystery]

what you said the other night kind of hurt. ut I think thats because its how I've been worried about making you feel. You confirmed my fears.

I don't know what to tell you I really don't. I don't even know what is going through my head...how am I suppose to explain it to you?

I'm extremely jealous of you.

You ALWAYS make me feel so awkward. I don't enjoy hangingout with you that much but I don't exactly want to be alone either. Being around you makes it feel like no matter what I do I'll never measure up. I'm not good at school. I'm not in pharmacy. I'm not the cool person. I'm always an outsider with you.

You don't understand.

I'm scared...
I'm lonely...
I'm happy? *smiles* Happy right?