[Megan1]

That website is sick and that guy needs serious help!

I know you guys are saying "if it hurts you, just don't read it".....But I know from experience that when you have an eating disorder, you will look at that stuff because you WANT that. You can't see that it is hurting you, you think that it is helping you because you will look better. You WANT someone to tell you that it's okay to starve yourself. You WANT someone who will help you to loose weight. You WANT someone who will support you working out and starving yourself. You don't want help, you don't see that those things are hurting you. It is a mental disease. Saying that anorexics have a choice whether or not to look at those sites is like saying that drug addicts have a choice whether or not to do drugs- yes they do, but it's an addiction that they have trouble controling. Of course they technically COULD stop, but it's not that easy. Those websites don't usually cause anorexia, but they will make it worse or even re-trigger it after recovery.

I firmly believe that anorexia is sometimes (if not always) connected to an obsessive complusive disorder. For me, aside from wanting to loose weight and feel pretty, it came to a point where any time I ate something other than soup broth, vegetables, and seeds, I felt dirty having the food in me- just because I had something it me and my body contained something other than just itself. Like some people are ocd about having things out of place in their houses, I was ocd about my body- I felt dirty having anyting in it. I hated food because it actually contained more than just water. The thought that food was inside of me made me feel dirty. It comes to a point for some people where it is more about not knowing how to control in your mind the difference between eating too much and not eating enough. When it comes to food, an anorexic has little to no logic. When I had an eating disorder, I literally COULDN'T make myself eat right, because my brain was so ocd that I obsessed about "if this food is unhealthy, than this food is too, and this one, and this one" until absolutely every food was ruled out. For example, here is how my brain worked: if donuts are fattening, so is pizza because it has the same amount of callories and fat. If pizza is unhealthy, so is pasta because they are both just carbs, sauce, and cheese. If pasta is unhealthy, most dinner meals are too. So I should just have cereal for dinner every night. But then again, if ice cream is fattening, what is the difference between that and milk? So I'll just have soup broth and vegetables every day.

So that's exactly what I did for quite a while- soup broth and vegetables every night.

And when someone encourages you starving yourself or calls you fat or anything like that, it makes the disease ten times worse. You need to show anorexics tough love by trying to force them to eat- but also beating the mental eating disorder by focusing on inner beauty and not needing to impress others.

The worst part about that guy's twitter page was when he said that he went to church and God "told him" to keep doing what he is doing...yet then said that there is no such thing as inner beauty, which is completely oposite of what God's word says. The bible says that God doesn't care what people look like on the outside.

And then there are the people who are saying "anorexia is just as bad as obesity". I understand that both are unhealthy, but I have to say (just my opinion) that I think being obese would be better. I don't mean that it would be healthier or anything, but better as far as.....I don't know, this is more of a personal opinion than anything.....it's hard to explain. I'd rather be obese and know that I don't have trouble eating and am not focusing on what I look like on the outside. I'd rather be obese and only caring about inner beauty, than anorexic and caring about how I look on the outside. But that's probably a biased opinion because I am recovered from anorexia (only stage 3, not very extreme) and would rather have almost any other problem than be there again.