[mikenikes]

i wish it were that simple.. but icant. not with the way i think about things and over analyze things.. i only fall asleep because my body can't run anymore. i can't get this off my mind.. i mean i'm only 17.. like this isn't supposed to happen to me. it just doesn't make sense. i see a therapist for my depression, and just got back from seeing him.. and he basically told me its nearly impossible that if shes pregnant its mine. i just don't know what to think.. or what to do. im scared honestly.. not because of the situation, but because of the fact that last time my life got tough like this, i got into drugs and nearly killed myself. i'm 11 months and 2 weeks sober now, i'm an ex drug addict, and the only thing i know of to make my problems go away is drugs. and that scares me.. because i know exactly where to find them and get them. i can see myself ruining my life again.. and it just.. it scares me.